Id just like to say reading what you wrote sounded like the exact feeling iv been going threw for many years now iv always had a very loving nature and a kind heart towards anything living, my dad become a priest when i was 7 and taught me allot about the church angels and things, i took great pride in helping him, as i got to my early teens the worlds shadows started to play its tricks and cause i was so easily lead found myself caught up in the underworld of drinking and drugs,to make a long story short some really nasty events happened to me which changed my life forever 1st at the age of seventeen, i was in a car accident which put me through the right passenger side front windscreen, i had what people call a near death experience where im positive i was floating into the brightest of white iv ever seen the feeling of pure happiness and no pain or bad feeling i could see a woman dressed in bright white further in front of me said it wasn't my time yet theres more for me to do, when i woke up was in the hospital, the doctors couldn't get over how i survived such a serious head-injury, and what i want to add last of all is many things have happened with no explanation but i do believe is that my angel watches over me all the time i can feel, and i do believe you've been touched the same.
